the worst thing that ever happened to me
happens to me every day
i wake up and decide to be a part of a world
that she does not belong to
i do not want to leave my boys without a mother
and i do not want to die
but sometimes in my wanting
i only want to be with her
in whatever world she does belong to
and when the time comes
i do hope that i can join her
and that wish is the closest to heaven here
that i will ever come
Less Than 1%: Surviving My Stillborn 