double or nothing?

it’s hard to start at zero again

when i was a kid i used to
play double or nothing

i guess it was easy then
just wagering candy
or a nolan ryan rookie card

the stakes get higher as we grow older
it’s harder to know when to fold

i peek through the blinds
to see the world outside
people walking their dogs
and enjoying the nice summer sun

and i wonder if i’ve got a losing hand
if it’s time to just walk away

and i worry that empty arms
can never really be filled again
anyways