christmas lights

oh christmas time is hard
for all the reasons you probably think
but then there is this other one

it pops up in other times of the year
but this is when it really hits home

because i love to decorate
and i love to decorate with lights
and strings of lights as you know
get twisted here and there

if you’ve ever messed with a bunch of cords
trying to unravel them, to find the way out

then you’ve experienced the frustration
of untangling knots

but you haven’t experienced it
the way i do

because every knot is hers
every knot is the one that killed her

and every knot is the one
that i couldn’t untangle

and each one marks
a little bit of death
on this joyful christmas tree