the most divine calling

can motherhood be a calling?
in this manic, misaligned world
i wonder if there might be something greater or grander
than simply having children

but when i catch a glimpse of myself
and who i am when i am with them
(in their most unhinged moments)
it’s like i access a kind of warmth and holiness
that isn’t present otherwise

and i’m absolutely certain
there is no greater calling than this —
this faithful falling and getting up
this breaking open and letting go

this magical love tethers us
beyond space, beyond time, beyond even ourselves

i am called to motherhood
like being called to water
i build joy and togetherness heart by heart
to last our family for eternity

my God is in this calling
and i know i am among the most lucky ones
who hears the cry so loud and clear