the truth is

the truth is
that i could have bought pink baby clothes
or friends would have handed down
little girl dresses and bows
elsa and anna would have quickly
found a home here

and while the boys will get a kick
out of having another brother to wrestle with
the truth is
that they would have adored a little sister
and played dolls and teacups too
space would have easily been created
for a little girl to join our family of boys

the truth is
space already was created

that is one of the many holes her dying left
one of the many that i fall into each day
one of the many truths
that wishing cannot change