nothing else exists

my body melts away
in a sort of gnawing at my outsides
as my insides rise to a new purpose

the weakness that sets in is unmistakable
and yet there is a kind of sacrificial strength to it all

nothing else exists
except the will to survive it
for the sake of another’s survival

it is hard not to think of her right now
how together
we fought through the hardest part
of what is such an excruciating journey for me

that we battled our way
through the minefield of hyperemesis
and got so close to the end, to victory

only to trip at the finish line
over a stupid fucking knot