the circle i find myself in now
is small and narrow and sad
is small and narrow and sad
i go round and round
traveling with the other moms
whose hope and hopelessness rises and falls
with their chest
who have gouged their own eyes out, too
the world has become too scary,
too painful, too distorted
to look at
so we grab each others’ hands
and lead one another
through the turbulent maze
of life after child loss
blind, but not so blind
as if we were going it alone
because maybe it really is like ram daas said —
we are all just walking each other home.