If Only

If only

My skin stayed on in the morning

If only little girls didn’t visit the nail salon with their mothers

If only the pregnant woman in my yoga class wasn’t having a little girl

If only there wasn’t a little girl on my son’s baseball team

If only the little boy pull-ups weren’t next to the little girl pull-ups

If only my old smocked dresses didn’t taunt me from the closet

If only I didn’t have to live in this world without her in it

If only.